A Brand new me!!!

It's friday!! I made it. I can beat my chest and declare that i have overcome what may have been the hardest week of my life. All sorts of things to numerous to name just started go off/wrong one after the other but i am still here. Some things are not though.
Whatever was between M and i is over for sure. Am i releieved? I do not know, but i am sure. I am shaking my head and sighing as i write this yet i can't say why. M used to say sighing without facial expression is nothing. A sigh with a frown- displeasure, regret...a sigh with a smile, contentment, relief...i wish i could see my face now....
On the upside, the dissapointments of the last week have turned out for good. It has helped me re-evaluate my life and me. I went out for a job interview yesterday and hope to get it. Also checked out that jazz club i have been meaning to go to but never went and collected their number for reservations. I finally picked up Helen Oyeyemi's Icarus girl which i am also looking forward to.
With university beginning now, new h/mates and potentially a new job, i am embracing my new mantra with zest...a brand new me!!!

The end of the sky!

I am absolutely FED up of the laziness of journalism on BRITISH TELEVISION. It is a load of TRIPE to watch. It is uneven, misleading and discriminatory! I have finally gotten sky to cancel my subscription after having to queue for 2hrs to an awful customer service in India. watching yesterday's tripe on newsnight (jews in Iran...never in my life had i seen such %"@^**** before) and five's news just now (before noon) has assured me that i have done the right thing however stressful it was to cancel my service. Television in this country is hideously racist, ludicrously lazy and annoyingly unfair. Painting Jews to be poor deprived people kicked out by a satanic Iran and on this morning's news....painting potential gang bangers to be black, latino or asian and the do-gooders trying to help white old men (does the script get any cornier?), the audacity of it!
I have made up my mind to avoid as much of it as possible by not watching it. I will do more reading, listen to music and perhaps more radio which incidentally is an avenue of more productive journalism. I think the people of this country are receiving a disservice from the media (especially the BEEB of which WE are all paying for it) and should speak out against this nonesense if trully want to end the societies ills, one of which is racism. Yeah right!

Top: Jill Scott
2nd line: Hard fi, greenday & Angelique
Here: Madge
Finally: The Best..Duran Duran















It occurs to me that music has acquired an essentialist nature in modern society as i notice how many people are either plugged into ipods or mobile phone MP3 players on the trains....why oh why can;t i be a musician, i'd make a fortune!!! Here are a few of my favs currently playing on my playlists!!

1980's Nigeria

Click here to see ad's that were aired in 1980's nigeria. Filled me with nostalgia. Those were the good old days...

welsh countryside in pictures

Talking about countryside, i have recently experienced a bit of wales which are in the pictures as below. All pictures were taken by me...i proudly declare. Some were taken @ the welsh heritage museum and others at the sea side.

black farmers in the country

Channel 4 is currently running an interesting series on black people in the British Countryside. I found this series most insightful and would recommend this to most! click here for more information.

What's between the Moslem and the holy see?

How are we to take this new development within the catholic church as it affects the world @ large. Recent statements credited to the holy see are deemed not at all complimentary to the Islamic identity. Here, the matter is no longer the context of the quote (it has gone way beyond that)....the issue is what happens next?
1. Does his holiness Pope Benedict apologise and by doing so admit that the quote was ill advised by the Vatican?
2. Does the Vatican stick to its story of the paper being purely academic/theoligical and therefore appropriate with no need for apology?
3. Does the Vatican force its identity as a political hegemon, compromising its religious identity
4. Will quiet diplomacy along the back passages of power resolve the issue

In any case,

Is this a precursor to further controversy to surround his holiness? How will this help to rejuvenate the ailing catholic church (i am catholic. i should know)? Is this a brilliant opener to questioning Islamic thought? Do Moslems (I mean this in its entirerity) consider themselves reactionaries? What will happen?

Who knew!

Yesterday at work, a young man was attached to me for the most part of the evening to learn the ropes as he was still in training as a new entrant! As we discussed, i found out that he had previously worked as a manager in a major company related to motoring but had been made redundant and therefore had to take on a job...any job to keep up with the mortgage. I admired him. Although he had a small side business in town, he was willing to retrace his steps, swallow his pride and begin again...which is more than i can say for myself.
After work, M and i had yet another misunderstanding which led to things being thought, things being said and others not said.....appropriate and otherwise.
I have now learned that we should never be too proud to start again, to admit defeat, to say we are sorry and to acknowledge when we are wrong ...only then can we be guaranteed a fresh start and sure success!